awws

Yes it been a highly dissapointing month.

with my dissapointing hsc results to my even more dissapointing UAI.
The hsc results were okay results, reasonable. I guess i was hoping for too much? i duno ... i was begging for at least one band 6 but ofcourse life is bitch (as we all know) and i didn't get one .. not even close to one! oh no its just band 5s and 4s =.=

Then the uai was just gay. because scaling is gay. i know its a fair system and what not but scaling is still gay. So yes scaling will always be gay to me *glares@scaling system*

Also i haven't been able to find employment! so it means i am poor and useless and completely hopeless. Farout =.=. So yes i am still desperately seeking a job. And like ... anyone .. help? HAHAHS

Sorry for my .... very long absence ! but theres really nothing to blog about. i can't keep blogging about my failures. See i was hoping something good will come up to blog about but in reality such thing does no exist. So i can only blog about sad things.

Also mother told me today that i am forbidden to buy myself a nintendo ds lite. i told her i'd use my own money but no. She just glared at me harder and said a harder no. aww man! i was so looking forward to getting a ds! and also a job to get the ds. but still! by tomorrow i would've saved enough money to buy the freaking console! but now life just decides to be further depressing and stuffing me into a deeper, darker hole. I might aswel be lost in space at the moment with the amount of hope i have left.

Also everyone i seem to talk to has this amazing UAI that is like .... makes me feel even worse! well i don't know. I mean i feel happy for them but i get reminded of my own failures and life sorta ends there and i start looking for a rope or sharp object. hmms

aww man i am so frustrated right now.

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