i am very much alive.

So i did decide on permanently closing this blog after the discovery of some unwanted readers but alas, i've decided i really do like blogging after a comment that i left on a friends blog went out of hand and turned out into a mini blog inside a comment box.

So yes i am back and i'll be cleaner with my blog i guess o_O but! if you there are reading my blog i request that you comment! put down some thoughts, let me know about your existence.

Anyways i've also been ridiculously busy with working till midnight every weeknight and also summer school in the day time, this is what happens when you fail a subject by only 4 marks! the horror of it all, i feel its a bit of an injustice but i guess my stupidity isn't a good enough excuse.

Because of all this business, i've also become tired and i feel like an aged woman of some sort, always tired! but today i actually found out the reason for my tiredness is because i don't do anything and it makes my brain mushy, dizzy and ultimately uselessly tired. So i'm going to be more proactive before i end up sitting in a chair and staring out a window for endless hours in a day.

Now really what else has been happening, well i'm sure everyone has heard about the raging bushfires that are eating up Victoria, our dear south east Australia. I really can't believe how much people perished in the fires, it makes me feel great sadness to know that fellow Australians are suffering so hard at this time. Even if you didn't lose your life, in those tight nit communities you would've lost a friend and possibly also your house. So really times are very tough for alot of them as they will all have to rebuild their lives. While theres raging bushfires in Victoria, in Queensland we have floods and torrential rains, which really makes u kinda annoyed at mother nature, thinking how slack of her to be conducting multiple experiments in Australia, ridiculous 45degree heat in one end with massive bushfires destroying entire towns then torrential non-stop rains causing floods on the other end, restricting food supplies to people and also other states. And then here we are in NSW we don't have the flooding and but we have some bushfires it really shocks me.

Last night i was watching the news and what i saw was our Prime minister Kevin Rudd, giving a speech to the people of Australia and not being able to hold back tears and i think that shows how much a part of it he is with the rest of the Australians, feeling the shock and grief and not holding up a straight face, covering it with a fake facade, as if everything was fine. Also the amount of money Australians have donated even during this time of need as many people are finding themselves without jobs and can still find the money to really help people who are left with almost nothing. Times like these really bring out the human side of everyone.

take care everyone!

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